Almost three month have passed since I had brain surgery. My neurosurgeon told me that it would take a few weeks to a few years after the surgery to be fully healed from my condition, and that it depends on each patient, case by case. He also told me that he cannot fix all of his patients by surgery, in other words, I may not be one of those in the successful statistical category. If the Lord would not heal me in this world, I believe that I would receive the perfect body and soul when I see Him face to face. So I had peace in fellowship with Him when I went into the operating room. Continue reading →
Sharing our prayers with others means we share our weaknesses. When we have pride in ourselves, we do not want to admit our vulnerability. And when we don’t show our weaknesses to others, we will not share our prayers; the Power of Christ will not rest upon us.
I can still remember it as if it was last week. We were at the hospital on a miserable rainy, drizzly fall evening. My husband and I were hearing devastating news from the ultrasound technician. I looked at the ultrasound screen but I didn’t know what I was looking for. Her face was serious and she eventually said to us “I am so sorry…“ I was 18 weeks pregnant and we lost our first baby.
I kept asking out loud, “Kamisama! Why God? Why did you take our first baby from us?” I wailed loudly in the parking lot at the hospital as we tried to find our car. My husband had no words for me. We felt abandoned and bereft. The world suddenly seemed to have lost all color and sound. I looked outside from the car window, as the rain pounded against the glass, and I felt empty and lonely. The world went by in slow-motion and everything seemed monotone. How could I face the sudden and unanticipated reality that I was no longer a mother-to-be? After five years of anticipation and waiting patiently for a little one, would he never be coming?
Peace from God is very mysterious. From the human perspective, my situation was awful and dejected but at the same time, I felt a peace, which I had never experienced before or after. Surely peace is not dependent on our circumstances. Even in the midst of the storm, God can provide His unexplainable peace which the world definitely can never offer.
Both Japanese and American friends shared with me this Bible verse. No matter our nationality or races, His Words speak to us! We are not separated by ethnicity or national borders. In Christ, our citizenship is in heaven after all!
One of my American friends explained the difference between fears and dismay. When we get dismayed, we are focused on the fear, and that can snare us; we become distracted from the Lord.
Father in heaven, please guide us that we are not enveloped with fear so that we will not be distracted from seeing you.
Today is just a continuation of yesterday, but we like a new start. I am sure you have some New Year’s resolutions. Every year, I see many new faces when I go to the gym, but by March, these new people have disappeared. Yes, we all fully intend to follow through, but our determination may not be enough. Breaking old habits and establishing new patterns is not easy. I have my lists of New Year’s resolutions also. In fact, every year they are the same. But this one is my lifelong resolution:
“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” (Matthew 6:33 ESV)
May your year 2018 be blessed by God’s grace and mercy!