Almost three month have passed since I had brain surgery. My neurosurgeon told me that it would take a few weeks to a few years after the surgery to be fully healed from my condition, and that it depends on each patient, case by case. He also told me that he cannot fix all of his patients by surgery, in other words, I may not be one of those in the successful statistical category. If the Lord would not heal me in this world, I believe that I would receive the perfect body and soul when I see Him face to face. So I had peace in fellowship with Him when I went into the operating room.
But in fact, I have been healed. I thought that when I was healed completely, I would shout with a loud voice and dance just like David did. Instead of dancing though, calm and quiet waves of joy filled my heart, and my small smiles turned to tears.
I was touched by His tender care, and I feel His love surrounding me. He always sustains me, but how can I pay Him back?
The day when I was born.
The day I was baptized.
And the day I was operated by a neurosurgeon and became free from those many long years of my brain disorder.
My days are always in His Hands. Even though I was healed this time, I know that someday in His time, my body will perish, and I will return to the soil. So what can I do from this point, now that He has preserved my life? Only 30,000 Americans live with this brain disorder and I was one of them. Was I born “unlucky” or does God have a special purpose for me?
I can do these things in His Hands: rejoice in His Presence daily, look up to Christ in all of my circumstances, and remember that I am only a traveler and sojourner in this life.
“I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I do not nullify the grace of God, for if righteousness were through the law, then Christ died for no purpose.”
Galatians 2:20-21 (ESV)